Previous episodes are – Part 1, Part 2.
On the new day, with new heart and rhythmic footsteps, Shanaya got ready into dotted black and white knee length one-piece. Although not completely healed, her thoughts were very clear now. But that heart, was still speaking something, which she had to avoid to listen. She thought to herself,
I wish I could be that little girl again. Skinny knees are easy to fix than broken heart.
But you cannot change the reality. With deep thoughts she entered into Hari Cafe, her breakfast point. After tasting her favorite Vada-sambar, she started feeling better. Yes, most of the times our feelings can be diverted or put on hold due to good food and that is a good thing. After relishing every sip of filter coffee, she was ready for her next destination – Sri Aurobindo Ashram. She had been there for multiple times by now but today she just wanted to sit there, while talking with herself. After touching the tomb of Sri Aurobindo, she found her eyes teary. So many emotions she had gone through since last few days, when Patrick was not replying to her calls. Finally, everything was over. it was time to begin new chapter of life or may be new life…..As they say,
One of the best times for figuring out who you are & what you really want out of life? Right after a break-up.
She sat in a corner silently, staring the sky. Why is it so hard?, she asked to herself. She felt crying hard but controlled herself. Silently, she got out of the place and went to the beach road. The beach road, at this time, was almost silent. Rare vehicle movements and few people around, she felt better. After all, she will not have to control herself again. She can allow those tears to flow down. After settling on the rock, she kept gazing at those splashing waves, for almost an hour. When she heard someone behind her, she felt like waking up from deep sleep.
Why are you crying? the guy asked same question again, which she did not even hear for the first time. She looked at him. Almost 6 feet height, unshaven face, grey t-shirt and blue jeans, deep eyes and ……she kept looking at him, forgetting to answer.
With slightly irritation in his voice, he asked the question for third time and Shanaya suddenly realized, where she was.
Ohhh, umm….its something personal, she spoke with hesitation. She never liked someone to interfere in her personal life.
Well, thats fine. I just wanted to tell you that don’t cry for the person who never understood the value of your tears, he said and shrugged with a little smile on his face and started walking in the opposite direction of beach.
Shanaya was amazed with his profoundness, his boldness, his caring gesture and above all his ability to read her mind. She almost ran behind him.
Heeyyyy, just wanted to talk with you for few minutes, she said from behind.
He turned around and looked at her. Without hesitation, he agreed and started walking with Shanaya.
After walking for few minutes, when Shanaya found both of them mute, she introduced herself.
In return, he shook his hand with her and spoke his name – Kartik.
Kartik, she spoke his name silently and smiled. They kept walking but no one spoke. Once again, Shanaya started,
So, how did you assume I had a heart break?
Its not an assumption, he shortened his answer.
Then? With curiosity she looked at him.
Its a fact, he looked straight into her eyes and for a moment she felt she was in love with those deep eyes.
Suddenly she felt like she wanted to share her story with him. Seriously, life is like that only.
Most of the time you do not want to share something with the nearest one but can easily speak about it to someone unknown. Afterall, being vulnerable is the best thing to do when you do not know what to do.
When she found Kartik waiting for her to start, she began her story and told him everything about Patrick and her relationship and how just yesterday everything ended.
But why are you crying? Kartik asked.
With irritation, she replied, its because I lost my first love, the person whom I loved the most.
Oh come on, you did not lose him, he lost you, he said with same intensity of irritation.
And suddenly Shanaya realized something. Something that was going to change the vision for upcoming life forever…..
To be continued….
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