Its been really long, I documented updates for this but I was waiting for something…..And finally it happened J.
I met Rachit for the first time and could match up the other side of this love story where same intensity and passion was observed. Until today, I have written story from Zoya’s end as I could never knew or got to know feelings from Rachit’s end. Meeting and talking with him proved Zoya’s statement for him 100% true –
They say love happens at first sight but for me, love happened at first chat or first e-mail or first talk. I loved Rachit because unconsciously my mind found out matching frequency with him. The comfort I felt while talking with him, be it any topic, was never experienced with anyone, not even with same gender friends. And the person who makes you feel comfortable is the one, you want to be with and I think that’s how that love feeling in me grew. While spending 12+ years away from him, without single contact, it was a ritual for me, where I was used to talk with him silently. And after reconnecting, when we talked, I found him same, as the one, with whom I was used to talk silently for years. He is able to make me smile, in any situation, while sitting at other end of world…..what else someone expects from love of life?
I must say, Rachit’s answers to my curious questions were reflecting same love chroma, as Zoya expressed. Here are some excerpts from our chit-chat :
I : Rachit, what do you think about experiencing love after almost being settled in life? Isn’t it strange? Isn’t it unacceptable to society?
Rachit : Given years of upbringing in traditional society, I think we both shrugged it off the rare matching frequency even after years, as one off feeling and nothing much. Both of us wanted to make first move but without jeopardizing beautiful relations that was being developed under shadow of love-leaf in outside stormy world of reality. Also, we both were aware of rare second chance and almost last one we had.
Love is exactly like plant growing from Ground. No matter how hard ground is, little fresh seed manages to sprout and thrive. Self denials of feeling from both ends did not do much to prevent us from communicating and planning to meet. And daily communication only worked as fuel for the fire ignited at both ends.
I : What was that moment when this started again or I should say the love connection resumed after years?
Rachit : A meeting, after 6 months of first meet, was the time. For most part, we both kept smiling and teasing and talking. However, on penultimate moment of saying bye, she just moved further and hugged me tight. I was taken aback for a moment and responded with same intensity. On the way back to airport, it felt like heaven. I wanted to hug her and wanted to be like that forever but controlled myself. On the airport, while walking, we instantly held each other’s hands. It was moment of confirmation and commitment for the feeling, which was growing in both of ours heart.
That one moment of love expression was a small enough gap in dam of Love that was hold up. As they said, it is very rare to find someone that you truly love. It is even rare to have that person love you back with same intensity. It is extremely rare to get second chance at the stage in life we had been. We felt extremely fortunate to have found each other in that “Supremely” rare category.
I : When both of you did not have any future, what made you both to go along the path, which society considers as WRONG?
Rachit : We felt connection before 12 years and same connection was still alive. That was the biggest proof that at heart, we both were same, were yearning for each other. Real life did not make much difference because we understood we were part of society but at the same time, we were human being. We wanted to live our lives and there is nothing wrong in it.
As time moved on, we realized that we are perfect for each other. In fact, we were always very perfect for each other like missing puzzle piece. When one stopped dreaming, other started coloring. When one made mental border, other flew them through that line as if border was just a runway. We both are passionate about everything we do in life including making love to each other, virtually, really and physically.
I : Most of the time, Love is named to cover desires of body. Why do you need someone outside marriage when you have companion for all, available for 24/7, under same roof?
Rachit : Everyone has different definition of love. I believe, physical intimacy is the highest manifestation of the love feeling and there is nothing wrong about it. For me and Zoya, it has never been primary factor. As I said, being grown up in traditional society, we both were aware about our boundaries and we were not sure whether we wanted to break it or not. Zoya was very clear about not getting involved physically and I did not have any problem about it. We never forced ourselves for anything. It was a natural flow of love and we both were just enjoying every moment of it.
In our next meeting, Love was in the Air. It was true feeling of First love which is fully reciprocated for both of them. We had lot to talk, lot to share, lot to laugh which was mixed with some shyness and strongest flavor of Love. It was just a perfect combination we had waited for years and thought that we lost all hopes that most precious feeling.
We invented ways like Light out time to hug each other to hide shyness, sleeping hug to hug in bed and get closer, eyes close time to take advantage of light and break barriers etc. The meeting is still as fresh in my mind because I still remember our first candle light dinner on rooftop or endless rides in private elevator so that we could hug without limit. All in all, we both could not have been happier as captured by one of the timeless image we shared.
Next day, we got so engrossed in talk @ Airport that Zoya missed flight. “Yesssssssss !” should have been reaction of mine but I was worried about Zoya. Apparently, she was happy to have missed flight and that gave us another afternoon to be together. But we were still adolescent. As usual, we had lots of laugh, lots of teasing, foreplay but not the supreme manifestation of love to each other.
I : So when that supreme manifestation happened and how do you remember it?
Rachit : After our meeting, I had to go back to real world but was in India again, within 40 days. As soon as we could plan, I decided to visit Zoya on a cold December night. our stomach was floating with anticipation and expectations. We enjoyed 120 minutes long ride to dream destination in that starry night. I almost remember that stars in our eyes were more than in sky on that night. Low temperature of winter could not hold our thumping hearts back. We tried to walk in cold night to see if we could extend our new found youth moments by few more minutes. It did not help much.
Then we were again together. We just wanted to be one. We wanted to truly fly at escape velocity leaving gravity behind. Pretty soon, Love Rhythm began as we were natural lovers. We did not need any coaching or adjusting to each other. We are meant for each other as two ends of magnets are. We felt natural pull towards each other. One moment lead to another and pretty soon, we melted into each other as if two pieces of puzzle fit into each other. We felt ecstatic, we felt that finally we have overcome internal conflicts, external restrictions and True Love had won. What a win it was indeed. The moment that could never be matched. Once in a lifetime moment. Once in a lifetime happiness. We felt like coming out of Robot’s body and being human again.
The next day was not any less exciting…We enjoyed some Honeymoon hours starting from beautiful morning walk to exciting food to exciting ride to lots of laughter together. The movie on next day was like we wanted to laugh together for past 12 years. The sensual moments mixed with genuine laughter made the best feeling we possibly would have never even dare to imagine.
And when I looked at Zoya, I could observe that blush on her face, while Rachit was talking. I had to complement both of them for finding each other as with fast paced era, when we are seeing love stories ending every other moment, this couple survived for almost 14 years and most of the time, without even seeing or talking with each other.
Who says love dies when not watered?
This virtual but more than real couple had redefined love for me and I was happy for both of them. Meeting love of life when you are almost settled with someone else and risking everything for that love is something not everyone does or not everyone gets a chance to do.
By the time, I am planning to end this chapter, Zoya is ready with some more moments to share….
Stay tuned 🙂