A true love story nearer to my heart : Part – 6

Not sure why updating about love stories via words is always so difficult. I would rather prefer to tell this story in person to see and understand reaction but I know, its not feasible. So let me make you virtual part of Zoya and Rachit’s life, to see, feel, understand and experience what love is and believe me, it never ends.

Previous episodes of this true love story can be found here – Part-1, Part-2, Part-3, Part-4 and Part-5.

While being truly into each other and most of the time away from each other, these madly in love couple never felt distance as a barrier. Rachit increased frequency of India visits and Zoya was used to run away with him over weekends, on the name of travel for work. Being with each other for the little time, made them understand how intensely they wanted to be with each other and what all kind of adjustments they were ready to do in real life, just to spend some time with each other. With every passing day, the love plant was nurtured by warm hearts and dreams of being together. But as they say, nothing continues forever. Life took a turn and put Zoya and Rachit on opposite ends.

That small moment of love started growing inside Zoya and she was scared when it was confirmed. It was not that she was fearful about society but she was not sure what to do. With Anup, her husband, she had rare physical relations and being nicer, Anup never forced about it. Her pregnancy announcement would have definitely raised questions, if not from anyone else, from Anup for sure. Zoya was thrilled with an idea to nurture the seed of love of Rachit and hers but of course, real life does not work with thrills only.

Zoya talked with Rachit and he was thrilled too but was not sure what to do. He was in US and was about to leave for a vacation with his family. He asked Zoya to visit US but confirmed that he will not be able to cancel the planned family time. That gave a strange vibe to Zoya.

Was she alone who enjoyed those love moments?…..No.

Would she have done same thing to Rachit for any relevant matter?…..No.

Was Rachit ready to face Anup or anyone else, if Zoya will announce pregnancy?.….No.

Zoya never asked for emotional support to anyone else, other than parents and best friends, during any phase of life. She felt weak when Rachit seemed restrained in his responses. With a formal tone, when Rachit hesitantly asked her, if she wanted him to be with her, she denied. After all, many other matters were taken care being alone in past and she felt it was not going the way she had expected. After some discussion, Rachit gave freedom to Zoya to decide about it and assured to be with her for whatever decision she would make.

Already two weeks had gone past missed date and morning sickness was showing up. Physical and emotional weakness was taking over. With no multiple options, Zoya decided to abort the dream of her life. She always wanted to have a kid with Rachit because she knew the love chemistry between two smart people would definitely be a reason of jealousy for the world. But who gets everything they want?

She went to gynecologist the same evening, after discussion with Rachit. While ultrasound, when she saw that tiny dot on screen, her eyes got teary. No one other than her would have ever understood the pain, she felt inside. She explained to doctor that her husband was in US and this pregnancy was a result of an unprotected moment. Doctor asked her to think again but she made it clear that she cannot continue with the pregnancy. Finally doctor asked her to be present with her husband for abortion. Zoya was terrified. How she would tell Anup that she was pregnant when she knew that Anup and she did not slept in same bed since long? She kept arguing with doctor that her husband cannot be back from US for this and ultimately, after long round of arguments, doctor was convinced. She asked Zoya to be present with any one supportive person and Zoya agreed, not knowing to whom she could ask for, to be together.

Very next moment after coming out of clinic, Zoya sent those ultrasound images and her decision to Rachit. He was almost on plane, leaving for vacation with family. Both were emotional and no one could console the other. Zoya, with a mountain of guilt about not able to keep alive the dream cried hard at one end and at the other end, Rachit too could not control tears. What a destiny!!

The other day, Zoya told Anup that she will have to be at work for more than 12 hours as the team was supposed to deliver the final version of product. Working in same field, Anup could understand and as usual, was supportive. Zoya left home early in the morning, without eating anything, as per doctor’s instruction. Her lifetime best friend, Trisha, was accompanying her. Zoya did not tell anything to Trisha and Trisha did not ask for details. I think that’s how best friends are. You do not get into details but you are there for the other. Rachit and Zoya were in touch with each other via WhatsApp. Rather than some words of being guilty of not being together, he did not have much to say. And the moment was there.

Zoya was asked to be in Operation Theater and at the entrance, she stopped and cried hard. This was not she imagined as a part of worst dream of her life. The pain of being lonely was unbearable but no one other than Trisha, who was completely unaware about details, was there with her. She walked into Operation Theater with heavy heart and followed instructions from team of doctors. Within couple of minutes, she was unconscious. Doctors completed the work in an expert manner and Zoya was shifted to the private room where Trisha was waiting for her. Looking at Zoya, Trisha was surprised. Her beautiful, head strong and chirpy friend was transformed into weakest person, Trisha had ever seen. She took some pictures of Zoya to discuss about it someday with her. Zoya gained consciousness within couple of hours. Due to some social emergency, Trisha had no choice but to leave Zoya. Being alone in that room, Zoya stared the ceiling. Tears found their way and that moment made her realized, she never felt that lonely in her life.

Why Anup or her parents were not with her? Because she had to hide this from them. And why she had to hide it? Because she did something which she was not supposed to.

Why Rachit was not there with her? Because Rachit had to be present with family for vacation time and Zoya did not want to lose her “strong girl” image, by asking Rachit to be with her.

Why that loneliness was unendurable? Because when you know, you have half city known but you cannot ask anyone to be with you, there cannot be any other more tragic situation in life.

Zoya cried and cried. She sent messages and her pictures (which Trisha had taken) to Rachit but there was no response from Rachit. An hour, two hours, three hours…but there was no response at all. The one, who promised to be together, had almost disappeared.

After 3 hours, with the help of hospital staff, she recollected herself and completed formalities of discharge while holding certificate of abortion. It was humid afternoon and she was not able to even walk properly. Going home in this situation was not a good idea and there was no other place to go. She got into rickshaw and asked him to drop her at temple. She found a lonely bench near temple and sat there. Feeling thirsty, she did not have stamina to go and buy a bottle of water. She kept sitting there till late evening until it was complete dark and her body strongly declined to follow instructions of mind to be awake. She saw responses from Rachit after 5 long hours and responded to some. Finally, Zoya had no choice but to go home as Anup had already called for twice.

At home, Anup and Navya were shocked after seeing her. She tried to convince them that she had a bad day at work and needed some sleep. In bed, she could not control and after a long day of emotional and physical pain, she slept. When she opened her eyes, she was in hospital room and found Anup and her parents around. Now it was her turn to be dismayed.

What if Anup and parents have known about the pregnancy, was the first thought in her mind?

Apparently, no one uttered single word. Zoya learned that, she bled heavily after she slept and when Anup came to check on her, he had to call Ambulance. For 36 hours, her parents and Anup were with her without eating anything, while trying to understand what was wrong. Zoya felt mountain of guilt.

The person who was responsible for the situation was enjoying vacation with his family and here her family was messed up. She kept asking herself, why she had to go through the pain alone? Why Rachit was not there with her? Why she had to give up on best dream of life? But there was no answer and she knew she was not going to find answers easily. Actually, she was not worried about answers anymore. She had decided something and had asked her mind to take over her heart.

Did the love story really end here?

Should the love story end like this?

Could Rachit have done better?

Why wrong moments teach us right thing?

Stay tuned to learn more about this love birds, who had once promised each other to be with each other, no matter what the situation……Foundation of true love is not that weak or I should say, life always gives third chance to everyone, including Rachit :-).

Rainy Wish

Those droplets of water

When started pouring

My wishes got wings

Eyes got uninvited dreams

And heart went on perpetual journey

How perfect it would have been

To be on beach at this time

To talk with you silently

To make castle of wet sand

To look at never ending water

To walk with you infinitely

And allowing rain to make us miserable

Suddenly, you remember

“we should have it, rightnow”

You say mischievously

I try to read your eyes

But fail to understand

You hold my hand and start walking

I get shiver in spine

Anticipation of next few moments

Excitement of being with you

And

Happiness of being in rain, finally

And you suddenly wake me up from my rain dream

“Here is your garam chai ki pyaali”, you say

And I still see same smile on your face

Not sure to smile on my daydream

Or to be angry with your stupidity,

I sip tea while looking at you,

Thinking what kind of coaching you need

I smile silently and wink at you….

My love, I finally utter

But before I could speak,

You jumped in….

Ï know you want second cup of tea

And I laughed….

My idiot, I want to dance with you in rain,

I speak silently with a wide smile

 

Jab We Met : 7 incredible life lessons

Its been almost 10 years now but memories of that movie is still as fresh as it was yesterday. And as if it was planned, got a chance to watch that movie again, as a part of family movie night. I know, lots of articles have been written about this movie but could not resist the urge to contribute mine :-)….Happy reading…

 

Love does not know right or wrong

Take Risks, play hard, don’t blame others…

Love yourself and everyone else will

Life is all about little moments….Live it

People management is a skill

Burn and flush the past…Start new

Love is an extension of invisible friendship

Let me Love you….

The dark and rainy night out there

The thunderstorm of emotions inside

The never ending salty ocean out there

The heartwarming sweet river inside

The loneliness in crowd outside

The companionship for life inside

The right combinations outside

The perfect match with all imperfections, inside

Battling between this in and out

Trying to balance this in and out

We lost so much of life by being away

We lived so much of life with memories only

We waited so much of life for perfect time

Lets forget the world

Lets cross the time sea

Lets melt into each other

Lets do what we have been made for

Lets build life with each other

Let me look into your eyes

And let me tell you,

I love you to the moon and back 🙂

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The Real Happiness….

When I look at the endless salty ocean
I am happy that I have glass of drinking water

When I look at the unknown crowd
I am happy that I have you who is known

When I look at the sun and the moon
I am happy that I am alive for you

When I look at the old couple
I am happy that I will have you forever

When I look back to my younger self
I am happy that I grew mature to match you

And when I look forward…..
I am thankful that the tunnel is about to end
Sunshine is ready to brighten the life
And the real happiness is waiting for us….

Loving someone and being loved with same intensity by same person is the rarest melody

being sung by emotions, wishes, dreams, hopes, desires, trust, loyalty and passion, in chorus….

Lucky to have you!!

You will see…

I will be flame and you will be candle….you will see

I will be mist and you will be flower…you will see

I will be color and you will be rainbow…you will see

I will be glass and you will be wine…you will see

I will be rain and you will be cloud….you will see

I will always smile on your lips

I will always play on your fingers

I will always flow down from your eyes

I will love you so much that you will be mad….you will see

I am all yours and will be like that forever….you will see

Companion

Those endless lonely paths terminated abruptly

Those hidden tears wiped out suddenly

Those painful losses turned into marvelous victory

Those darkened days got sunshine from nowhere

Those smelly shirts have changed to fresh fragrance

Those stained coffee mugs are filled with warm coffee again

Those terrible falls have been converted to high fly

Just your presence….

My Companion for life, just your presence

Has converted life to a beautiful dream…

When…And…

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When our brains will start recording

And hearts will play the music

When sand will be the bed

And sky will be the blanket

When lips will be poisoned with kisses

And naked bodies will be spoiled with love

When heaven will not be an imagination

And our love will not know any boundary

When there will be love marks everywhere

And two soul mates will be smiling at each other

When you will say “I Love You”

And I will just stop the time…

To replay the moment again and again

 

6 things being in love makes you understand …

They say, falling in love is something, no one can control….

well, Being in love and realizing the changes it presents is the best thing, as a result of uncontrolled fall  :-)…

Here are those realizations….

1. Every hardship to keep that feeling alive seems worth.

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2. Unknowingly that safe player in you has turned to risk taker.

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3. Journey matters much more than destination.

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4. What is the most important thing in life and how crazy you can get about it.

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5. The difference between casual and sensual touch and how it matters.

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6. Everything is possible, every dream is achievable.

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That Tattoo…

That moment….

We embossed ourselves

With a symbol of love

With a promise

To live the love for lifetime…

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I still see your face in it, every morning

I still kiss it softly, at every opportunity

I still stare at it, while every lonely moment

I still cover it from the world, at every instance

I still feel color in it, everyday

With a hope that

One day the other half of this tattoo

Will remind you…

Someday, someone loved you

More than herself

More than anything in the world

More than any love story can describe

More than anyone would have loved you

That tattoo….

Will not allow you to forget me 🙂